The dreaded time in the life of any toddler mother is upon me....
POTTY TRAINING! duh duh duh....
My son will be three in May. We will have another little one in April. It's time, right?
Well, it isn't going so well. My little man does NOT want to go in the potty. He flat out refuses sometimes. He begs for a diaper and cries if I make him wear "big boy undies" We have had several accidents that are not plesant and do not do anything for my weak pregnant stomach.
I am not sure if my little man is just not ready, or if his stubborn streak is taking over and he realizes that this is something that he has control over, so he is going to exercise that control.....
Either way, it is tiring, frustrating, and just plain gross.
When I was thinking about this dilema this morning, I could not help but pray about it. I asked God to give us grace in this area today. to help my little one see the error of his ways. I asked God to care about the toilet.
However, when I took a step back, I saw myself through the eyes of my Heavenly Father.
How often do I mess in my spiritual pants?
How often do I go back to doing something that I know God calls gross and just plain sin?
My little man knows I love him. He knows that no matter if he pees in the potty or in his diaper, or on the floor, Mommy will still hug him when he skins his knee and kiss his head when he goes down for a nap. I give him grace because I love him.
Do I expect this from my Heavenly Father? Do I use this grace as an excuse to return to my selfish, sinful ways? How frustrating this must be for God.
Someday, my little man will be potty trained... Even if it seems like it will never happen. I know he will not be 15 and still using diapers. But when will I get it under control??
It was a conviction to me this morning to see not only how much God loves me, but to see how he can use my daily frustrations to show me that love.
As much as I love my little man, my Heavenly Father loves me even more....
I want to live my daily life dead to sin.